i could not believe it. its my birthday today and i forgot it. i only remembered when my mates at work took me to lunch and surprised me. that was a pretty cool experience. thanks guys for that. appreciate it.

besides that, i hate birthdays :-)

to me, my birthday is just another freakin fked up day. y the hell would i wanna celebrate the day i was brought in to this messed up, unfair world full of suffering?

i mean, life's been a pretty sweet ride for me so far. i've actually had it easy. but i fully understand what life is and what it takes to live a good life.

nothing, absolutely nothing can be gained in life without giving or sacrifising something. you have to give 1kg worth to get 1kg worth back. and the end result? you end up with the same amount you had, 1kg. so what's the point?

and everything that you gain are temporary and uncertain. they dont last. or need constant attention and maintenance. for example: you workout hard out at the gym and build a rock solid body. you miss a month of gym and you are the same fat bastard you were before. or even worse than before.

those of you who understand "karma" and believe it to be true might understand the shit that im talkin about.

and worst of all, let's say you made massive, massive sacrifises and gained the best life on this planet... at the end of your short 70 year life, you lose it all and have to do it all over again in your next life. now doesnt that suck big time? and good luck to the man who made some mistakes along the way and collected some bad karma :-)

anyways, this post is getting too long and i better stop mumbling this bullshit (even though its not) *hehehe*

so, if you dont agree with me that life on planet earth suxxx, please do post your comments. i would looooove to argue with you and prove you wrong :-)

cos i have read piles n piles of books on my quest to find the answer to the ultimate question:

WHY AM I HERE?